Communication issues

My gosh...I am such a dope! Communication is not supposed to be on of my weak points. I am an excellent talker! I can hold my own in any conversation, and I never have a problem voicing my mind. Until I'm in the company of a guy I like. I am so afraid of mentioning anything, because I don't want to "scare him away", so instead I don't say what I'm feeling. I just make assumptions (we all know what that leads to...), and blow things way out of proportion. He blew off 2 dates: we were supposed to go out Thursday, he called and said he was sick, then we rescheduled to Saturday, and he didn't call until Sunday. He said he had spent all day Saturday, still sick, but didn't mention the missed date.

I guessed that he was being a jerk, blowing me off, and/or not interested anymore. I don't understand this not calling thing!! So what did I do? Called him and asked him to coffee tonight. Great! I was going to lay it out...tell him I just needed to feel like he was making an effort, so I didn't feel like I was annoying stalker chick. I was going to say that I was hurt when he didn't call Saturday. That I needed to know where I stood, whether we were just hanging out, or just hooking up. Not in a threatening tone, just for my peace of mind. wonderful plan! Sure to work!

Did any of that happen?! NO! I'm too much of a moron. I couldn't bring it up, all I wanted to do was be fun, have fun etc. I couldn't handle hearing something bad from him. Why can't I just open my mouth and talk openly about my feelings?! You'd think I was a man! So we have a great time, I'm pretty sure he did. Then we walk out, and he kisses me goodnight. Yep, I'm sure he kissed me. He did the leaning. It was a cute, sweet, we're-in-public type of kiss. Then we walk away. Shit! Now I'm even more confused! Why do I immediately start analyzing things?! Did he do that because he felt he had to? What did he mean by that? So, I get home and decide to call. Now I'm going to say all the things I wanted to say. So here's how it goes:
"Hi, I just wanted to say thank you"
"ok" laughing
"for coming and hanging out this evening, talking a spending time with me. I wasn't really sure where I stood until tonight and I wanted to say that I have a really great time when I'm with you."
"good, me too"
"I just wanted to say that, because I'm sometimes not the greatest at communicating"
"I've been accused of that in the past too" laughing
"Ok, goodnight"
"'night"

It wasn't what I wanted to say, but I feel that I got something out there at least. I also learned that he's maybe not the king of openness, and it's not just me. We're supposed to hang out Thursday, maybe I'll grow a pair to really delve into this by then. Yeah, right.